Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Interesting how things relate...

Just read the comment from my last blog post. It's a funny world when you think about it. Just today at work during lunch I took part in a free yoga session, and what's the possibility that in reading the comment tonight, you've suggested yoga! Perhaps I'll have to seriously pursue the yoga thing, it almost seems kharma-like now. I did enjoy it -- it helps to break up the day and remember that life isn't about work. Work is just how you maintain your lifestyle. It's great to enjoy what you do, but it isn't always the most important defining factor in your life. And, secondly, I woke up some muscles today that I don't think have been used in quite some time. How is it that we have this body with all of its resources (how many muscles do we have?) but we can go through life and only use a small percentage? Amazing.

With everybody mended on this end, and the sun making a showing recently, with some success at work, great discussion with my sibling, the world is seeming somehow brighter today. Almost as though I've turned a corner and the lightbulbs here are brighter and warmer. Let's hope this isn't quick in passing! My doctor recently prescribed megadoses of Vitamin D weekly, it seems I'm deficient, and I wonder if this has anything to do with it. My mom has always maintained that she has SAD (Sun Affective Disorder?) -- it's not sun, I don't think, but basically it has to do with limited exposure to it and how that affects your mood. I've believed her, but never really thought that it had anything to do with me.

After being on extra vitamins for a week now, if this isn't what's brightening my mood, then it's a coincidence. Nevertheless, I'm supposed to continue taking this and we'll see how it goes. I used to be described as a "perky" person -- sometimes I still am! -- and I never thought I'd want to go back to that. Always thought that "perky" denoted some kind of lack of intelligence while being overtly happy, but maybe the happy part is worth the label. :-) I have also recently sought counseling, recognizing my mood has not been perky for a while, and perhaps that has had some effect also. It's a wonderful thing to have someone who listens to you and affirms what you're feeling, even if you're just being self-indulgent. Which I don't think I am, but maybe I am.

Today's post seems like a mishmash of nothing, but also everything. Is it any wonder I'm awake at 3 in the morning? My mind isn't following a train of thought, but many trains. I need to find a way to turn it off, I need some sleep before work! While it's helpful to blog, it's also unfair to the reader, I think, to just pour out whatever comes out. ;-)

As soon as I can, I intend to make sure one of my next blogs touches upon what's really the important thing (the elephant) that I keep dancing around. Maybe next time! It's not really that big of an elephant, I think it should make an appearance before it gets bigger!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Busy, but better...

Finally, through the illness! But very, very busy at work. So many people out for spring break, not to mention in my immediate area two people out for surgeries, those of us left have to cover for other departments. With the layoffs, cutbacks, we're already short-staffed, so have too much to do anyway. I'm thinking of taking a vacation! After everyone gets back and things get kind of back to normal, I may take a week off. It's time for someone to cover for me! :-)

Great discussion this week about the differences in workstyles, i.e. am I a workhorse or a racehorse? And is this a personal choice or something I feel forced into? Obviously, the hardest thing is to learn to say no. Especially when it's made extremely plain that those who do, will keep their jobs. Oh, the woes at work right now. And I know I'm just lucky to still be employed! It's hard to complain, but it's also just wrong that those in upper management feel they can say these things and that's okay. Emotional blackmail.

But we all still keep moving on. And for the better good...

Monday, April 6, 2009

One more day...

A sick child. Who could think of anything more sad? Okay, I know, this is just one of those unproductive influenza bugs that goes around every year and she'll be fine, but it's never like that. You just worry about them so. The paleness of the face, the constant battle to keep the fever from making them lose their stomach, the look on their face of trust that you will make them all better. She's of an age now where it's almost possible to reason with her about it. Though I have to admit that when I'm sick, the last thing that I am is reasonable. She gets sick one evening, and the tough part seems to have lasted about 2-1/2 days, and now it's just the icky runny nose, coughing, etc. that will hang on for a while. Hopefully we seem to be past the bad fever. Though since I'm not sure, I will be sleeping with her again. What could be the harm in that? :-) I know she wants to have me near, someone to rely on, but really, who needs to be near more? Yes, it's probably me. I would get no good sleep in a different room, I want to be able to touch her brow and feel the coolness, it's reassuring. School tomorrow? Maybe. She's been without a fever, if this holds, for 24 hours already. It will be many more by tomorrow. We'll see. The recovery portion of sickness may require me to stay home and play animalopoly one more time. What's the harm in that?